this honestly bothers me to the point where i feel sick. i know i shouldn't remind myself of the past and what's happened but sometimes it just pops into mind and i feel like i'm going to throw up every time. i don't talk to people about it cause i don't want to hear shit like if it makes you this unhappy you guys shouldn't be together and i don't wanna hear shit like oh hes an asshole cause none of that is true. i hate talking to people about things that are my personal insecurities and issues because they don't know what to say or how to deal with it. but honestly, i need to get over all of this shit. i can't wake up every morning and go to bed every night feeling like i'm going to be sick. in the end all the trust just needs to come back and you need to prove to me that i don't need to be worrying about you. i love you and i wanna trust you and you say you wanna be with me for a really long time. lets make this happen, work together and finally get over whatever has gone on in the past. i'm working on it but the only way it's going to happen is if you can be good from now on. promise me,.